First Winter Exam Session – Done

Three days ago I finished what was my first ever university exam session and let me tell you, it was a whirlwind of emotions, insecurities and late nights. I understood so much about myself and about what I will do better next time and I have to say, I am very pleased.

My first exam was on the 10th of January, Business Fundamentals I think you would call it in English. I went fully prepared and knowing that I would ace it. That turned out to be true: I did everything perfectly and got the maximum. I was very happy and for the first time ever I felt like hard work really pays off. So that is my first lessons learned there.

My second exam was probably the one I dreaded the most: Math. This was the lengthiest one, divided in two parts: the written exam (on the 16th of January) and the oral exam (on the 22nd). The written part went, in my opinion, kind of below mediocre. The oral part went much better and my professor assessed that: that got me a 26/30 overall. I could not have been happier, I must say. That grade is higher than any I have ever gotten in high school in this subject and I am proud of myself.

Fast forward to three days ago, I did my last exam of the semester, Public Law, at noon on the 20th of February. Now, I have never felt more insecure than I did the days prior to this exam. I did not study as much as I should have, I did not prepare my answers as well as I should have, so I was mentally prepared for a mediocre grade. The professor herself decided to examine the student who have actively frequented her class (leaving the others to her assistants), those she recognized the faces of, so she also picked me. She started asking me question after question, not letting me breathe, saying she liked my way of answering and therefore having fun torturing me. I did not expect to get the maximum, but I did. What mattered more though, is what she told me after: she said that she is proud of me and of the fact that also my other exams went well and how she is simply content witnessing this from someone who was not born in this country.

This final exam made me realize that I should believe in myself more, that I should assess my capabilities. A friend of mine, whom I was venting to the night before, told me to remember that I am Wonder Woman.

What you are inside shines through in times of hardship and coincidently, those times make you who you are.Β 

This semester I have been insecure, thinking that other classmates of mine were way above my level and that I could not reach them. Well, that proved to be false. I have something that not many people have, and it is not a particular drive for a subject more than another; it is purpose. I have a grand plan in my head and I will not rest until it is accomplished. You want to know who I am? I am the person you hear about in motivational videos on youtube. Check me out.

I am not perfect, I have to say. There are many things I should have done differently: I should have started studying sooner and I should have studied more. I should have doubted myself less and ignored my brain when it would try to make me nap in the afternoon. This semester, starting Monday, I know better.

Thank you for reading.

xx

Advertisements

Reflecting

I always get in my feelings as soon as the festive season starts, from Christmas Eve until the New Year. This year though, it has been tougher to see the silver lining. Let me explain.

The festivities are always a bit lonely for me. Yes, on Christmas Eve I was with my parents and it was nice and I appreciated it, since some people do not even get to have that. But we are a small family: it is just the three of us here. The rest are scattered across the globe. I am also an only child, so that doesn’t help.

Christmas Day itself was lonely. The more I scrolled through Insta and watched InstaStories, the more I saw friends with their extensive families, enjoying their company, eating, and playing. I was alone, with my phone, my dog, a cup of tea, Anastasia (the animated film), and Love Actually. For the first time in a looooong couple of months I felt truly alone. But I noticed, both on tumblr and Twitter, that people made posts of solidarity for people who, like me, were lonely or alone these Holidays. It was indeed nice seeing how good people can be.

I am sure I was not the only one who felt like this and I want to say, and reassure you, that everything is temporary. This time will pass, just like everything else, and everything will go back to normal or, for a change, will become even better. All I can say is that you should try and stay busy, be it by watching films, going out for walks, or studying/working.

So keep sipping your tea, watching your rom-coms and scrolling through Insta. You’ve got this, patient wolf.

Thank you for reading and have a merry ending of 2017.

xx

Happy Holidays – 2017

I honestly and truthfully cannot believe how fast this last quarter of 2017 went by. I did not even feel November pass by and now here we are, already celebrating (or not) the Holidays.

Now, for a university student, the Holidays do not have the same appeal they once had, since, at least for me, finals start on the 10th of January, therefore I have to study, study, study and study. Yes, I will try to take time off at least on the 25th and 31st, but besides that, I need to start grinding now, since the finish line is so close and expectations are so high.

For whomever celebrates any sort of holiday and for those who do not, I hope you enjoy your time off with your dearest ones and that you cherish every accomplishment and second of these days. A special “good luck” goes to those who work in retail and any other type of business that stays open during the holidays. May you find the time to drink a nice glass of wine and toast for good fortune.

Happy Holidays, from me to you.

xx

University Life Update and Advice – December 2017

Remember how I was so positive and excited back in this post? Yep, things changed. Exams are nearing (my first one is on the 10th of January) and I am scared af. I have indeed started studying but I already feel like I am behind (which is particularly accurate).

True, I should have started studying as soon as the semester started but being big-headed and egocentric, my ego got the best of me and now here I am, swimming through despair. Okay, I might be exaggerating; there are people who are in way worse situations than me, but still, I feel a bit lost.

As far as Math goes, I think I am at a pretty good point. Some things are new for me too, but I get the mechanics behind them and all it takes is a bit of practice.

Business Fundamentals, on the other hand, is a bit more complicated: I am at a good point with the theory, but accounting is a whole another beast that I still have to truly face head-on. Just like math, getting good at accounting takes time and practice, which is why I will truly study it during my Winter Holidays.

Lastly, Public Law is…boring? I mean, it flows well and the professor is awesome, but it is not my cup of tea. Luckily, this exam is at the end of January so I have a lot of time to study and repeat out loud the most important content.

Now, for some advice:

  • start studying as soon as possible: seriously, it is never too early to start. Do not reschedule, do not say “I’ll do it later”, just do everything as soon as possible, while also doing it well;
  • do the reading: if a professor tells you what you have to read up on until next lesson or leaves you an exercise to do at home, do it. They do that for a reason and you will feel accomplished;
  • study anytime, anywhere: I take the train everyday, back and forth, to and from Rome, and those 80 minutes total can be spent studying or reading something helpful;
  • it is okay if you cannot do it, for once: everyone has their breaking point, everyone gets tired, every woman gets pms and feels dead on the inside. Rest is good, as long as you are recharging to push harder next time;
  • be nice: simply put, be a nice person, be it to your peers or to professors, do not act superior; everyone is in the same boat as you and professors are there to help and teach, so do not think that they are out to get you and catch you unprepared.

This is what I have to say for now. I will probably update you guys after my exams are over, hopefully bringing you good news.

Than you for reading, once more.

xx

Perugia Eurochocolate Travel Diary

If you follow me on Instagram you probably know I went to Perugia this past Saturday, the 21st of October, at the Eurochocolate Festival that takes place there every year. The trip was organised by some students of my University. They rented 2 busses, very nice ones by the way, bought us breakfast and took us to Perugia in 2 hours time. We were all pretty much the same age, so things went very well, aka we had a blast.

We got there at about 10am and had time until 4:30pm to wander around. And let me tell you, it was great. Besides the chocolate itself, Perugia is a very nice town, very old and semi-high up in altitude.

Processed with VSCO with lv01 preset

My friend and I managed to find a pretty desolated spot where there was a great view, along with some benches to relax on, with the chilly mountain air.

Processed with VSCO with lv01 presetProcessed with VSCO with lv01 preset

Besides this amazing view, the town centre was packed with tourists, as well as with guests from a wedding that took place there.

Processed with VSCO with hb2 presetProcessed with VSCO with a6 presetProcessed with VSCO with lv01 presetProcessed with VSCO with a6 presetProcessed with VSCO with lv01 presetProcessed with VSCO with lv01 preset

We then found an even more photogenic place, after wandering into a bookstore and coming out with BeyoncΓ©’s first CD. Oops.

Processed with VSCO with lv01 preset
Check my Instagram for more pictures.

And here is all the chocolate that I bought, which was not an exaggerated amount.

IMG_9896

Thank you so much for reading, once more.

xx

University Life – October 2017 Update

This last 18th of September I started University and let me tell you, I could not be happier. I love new beginnings and this is the best one yet. Leaving behind all that was dragging me down was something I desperately needed.

I decided to pursue a degree in Business and more specifically Economics at the Sapienza University of Rome. Classes have been going on for the last month and I feel amazingly accomplished regarding the notions learned and the people I have made friends with. Getting to Uni in the morning is not the easiest voyage, but it could be worse: I take the train and walk quite a lot, but I do not mind.

The books are indeed intimidating but once you get into the mood of studying and learning it all flows better. My professors this semester, all women, are great and teach in a very pleasant way. I also got lucky regarding the time the classes are taught: from 9am to 1pm. Very, very lucky indeed.

I love learning how a business is started and what is needed, how the state regulates the privates, and also how law works. Math is the one subject where I feel more advantaged, because the professor is teaching things I already know.

My exams are in January and I have started studying here and there, but I still have to get serious about it. All in all, I am extremely happy and excited with how my life is going.

Thank you for reading.

xx

My high school experience is Done!

I cannot believe this is real. I finally finished high school, after 5 intense and gruelling years (yes, high school lasts 5 years in Italy). The feeling has just started settling in even though when I am writing this 2 weeks have passed since I took my last exam.

I am content with the way my finals went. Could have they gone better? Of course, it can always go better, but I was well aware of what I have done during these 5 years and what my limits were (aka the math part was not really my forte).

I must say that I was not stressed in the least during my exam weeks. Yes, it was overwhelming but what was done was done and no late night study sessions could mend the spaces left behind. I was calm and collected, despite experiencing a very harsh UTI when I took my first exam. I know, it might be too much information, but it is what it is.

Now that all is said and done, I think I should reflect on what these last 5 years have meant and what they have done for me.

When I started high school I was a completely different person, and I really mean it. I was extremely shy, awkward and would not socialise whatsoever. Thankfully, I then became friends with a classmate of mine who was and is my complete opposite. She helped me become more open to opportunities and talk more. From then on, despite some people not believing in me, be it because I am female, be it because I am Romanian, I thrived. I often came out on top, regardless of whether I studied or not and that made people angry. The fact that I was respectful to everyone made people angry. And now, despite everyone’s doubts and comments, I am a happy woman, who feels fulfilled and who is extremely, extremely excited to move forward in life, and that means going to university.

I cannot wait (I mean, I can a bit) to start this new chapter in my life and take you guys with me. Thank you so much for reading.

xx